Everythingismorecomplicatedthanyouthink

　　Minister:Everythingismorecomplicatedthanyouthink.Youonlyseeatenthofwhatistrue.Thereareamillionlittlestringsattachedtoeverychoiceyoumake;youcandestroyyourlifeeverytimeyouchoose.Butmaybeyouwon’tknowfortwentyyears.Andyou’llneverevertraceittoitssource.Andyouonlygetonechancetoplayitout.Justtryandfigureoutyourowndivorce.Andtheysaythereisnofate,butthereis:it’swhatyoucreate.Eventhoughtheworldgoesonforeonsandeons,youarehereforafractionofafractionofasecond.Mostofyourtimeisspentbeingdeadornotyetborn.Butwhilealive,youwaitinvain,wastingyears,foraphonecalloraletteroralookfromsomeoneorsomethingtomakeitallright.Anditnevercomesoritseemstobutdoesn’treally.Andsoyouspendyourtimeinvagueregretorvaguerhopeforsomethinggoodtocomealong.Somethingtomakeyoufeelconnected,tomakeyoufeelwhole,tomakeyoufeelloved.AndthetruthisI’msoangryandthetruthisI’msofuckingsad,andthetruthisI’vebeensofuckinghurtforsofuckinglongandforjustaslonghavebeenpretendingI’mOK,justtogetalong,justfor,Idon’tknowwhy,maybebecausenoonewantstohearaboutmymisery,becausetheyhavetheirown,andtheirownistoooverwhelmingtoallowthemtolistentoorcareaboutmine.Well,fuckeverybody.Amen.　　　　MillicentWeems:Whatwasoncebeforeyou–anexciting,mysteriousfuture–isnowbehindyou.Lived;understood;disappointing.Yourealizeyouarenotspecial.Youhavestruggledintoexistence,andarenowslippingsilentlyoutofit.Thisiseveryone’sexperience.Everysingleone.Thespecificshardlymatter.Everyone’severyone.SoyouareAdele,Hazel,Claire,Olive.YouareEllen.Allhermeagersadnessesareyours;allherloneliness;thegray,straw-likehair;herredrawhands.It’syours.Itistimeforyoutounderstandthis.　　　　MillicentWeems:Walk.　　　　MillicentWeems:Asthepeoplewhoadoreyoustopadoringyou;astheydie;astheymoveon;asyoushedthem;asyoushedyourbeauty;youryouth;astheworldforgetsyou;asyourecognizeyourtransience;asyoubegintoloseyourcharacteristicsonebyone;asyoulearnthereisno-onewatchingyou,andthereneverwas,youthinkonlyaboutdriving–notcomingfromanyplace;notarrivinganyplace.Justdriving,countingofftime.Nowyouarehere,at7:43.Nowyouarehere,at7:44.Nowyouare…　　　　MillicentWeems:Gone.本文版权归作者zhangxunnj所有，任何形式转载请联系作者。