AletterAugustuswrotetoPeterVanHouten

这种电影我无法评论，因为健康人无法体会癌症患者的内心，所以打星或推荐的都不是冲这故事，而是每个人就算你是星辰中的一个错误，也有对于美好的渴望。直接网页复制小说里的那一封信AletterAugustuswrotetoPeterVanHoutenVanHouten,quot;Imagoodpersonbutashittywriter.Youreashittypersonbutagoodwriter.Wedmakeagoodteam.Idontwanttoaskyouforanyfavours,butifyouhavetime-andfromwhatIsaw,youhaveplenty-IwaswonderingifyoucouldwriteaeulogyforHazel.Ivegotnotesandeverything,butifyoucouldjustmakeitintoacoherentwholeorwhatever?OrevenjusttellmewhatIshouldsaydifferently.HeresthethingaboutHazel:Almosteveryoneisobsessedwithleavingamarkupontheworld.Bequeathingalegacy.Outlastingdeath.Weallwanttoberemembered.Ido,too.Thatswhatbothersmemost,isbeinganotherunrememberedcasualtyintheancientandingloriouswaragainstdisease.Iwanttoleaveamark.ButVanHouten:Themarkshumansleavearetoooftenscars.(OkaymaybeImnotsuchashittywriter.ButIcantpullmyideastogether,VanHouten.MythoughtsarestarsIcannotfathomintoconstellations.)Hazelisdifferent.Shewalkslightly,oldman.Shewalkslightlyupontheearth.Hazelknowsthetruth:Wereaslikelytohurttheuniverseaswearetohelpit,andwearenotlikelytodoeither.Peoplewillsayitssadthatsheleavesalesserscar,thatfewerrememberher,thatshewasloveddeeplybutnotwidely.Butitsnotsad,VanHoutenitstriumphant.Itsheroic.AftermyPETscanlitup,IsnuckintotheICUandsawherwhileshewasunconscious.IwalkedinbehindthenurseandgottositnexttoherforliketenminutesbeforeIgotcaught.IreallythoughtshewasgoingtodiebeforeIcouldtellherthatIwasgoingtodie,too.IjustheldherhandandtriedtoimagineaworldwithoutusandforaboutonesecondIwasagoodenoughpersontohopeshediedsoshewouldneverknowthatIwasgoing,too.ButthenIwantedmoretimesowecouldfallinlove.Igotmywish,Isuppose.Ileftmyscar.Whatelse?Sheissobeautiful.Youdontgettiredoflookingather.Youneverworryifsheissmarterthanyou:Youknowsheis.Sheisfunnywithouteverbeingmean.Iloveher.Iamsoluckytoloveher.Youdontgettochoosetheonesyouhurtinthisworld,butyoudohavesomesayinwhohurrtsyou.Ilikemychoices.Ihopeshelikeshers.Ido,AugustusIdo.quot;-page310-313