Justavoidloveatallcosts.

Haveyoueverfeltthatyouarestarvingbutyourstomachrefusestoacceptanything?Youwerelookingtheskyandsmilingbutyoudeeplyknewthatyouwerenothappy.Youweretalkingwithsomebodybutyourmindwaswonderingatsomewherefaraway.Youarelostandstuckinlove.Youlosesomeoneyouthoughtyoucantlivewithout.IstillrememberthatNovember.Losingsomeonewhowontcomebacktomylifeagainseemslikesinkingtothebottomtothesea,alwaysbeggingforonebreathfromair.Iwasscaredtobealone.Iwantedtobeaccompaniedwhomeveryouwere.Talkingwithme,listeningtome,stayingwithme,walkingwithmeandmakingmehappy...Hewasthepersonwhocarriedmeoutwithanoxygenbomb.Iwasalwaysthankfulforhimforeverythingthathehadhelpedmewith.Wearealllikeferrymen,totakeyoutotheoneandtoholdyouwhilelonely.Eventhoughhewasjustafriend,hetaughtmethatyoushouldavoidloveatallcosts.Nowoneofmyfriendsgotlostagain.Eventhoughwearenotthatfamiliarwitheachother,Istillwanttohelphimcarryon.Movingonaloneisaveryhardandlongtriptogo.Heneedaccompany.Waitingisaveryweirdwordinlove.Mostwaitingareinvain.Ifhelovesyou,youneverneedtowait.IFdoesnt,evenhecomesbackatlast,hewasntthepersonthatheusedtobeanymore.Soifheleft,thatistheend.Andtosomedegree,thatisaperfectresultforyouboth.Irememberthatithurts,lookingatherhurt.Icouldhearmyheartbeating.Icouldheareveryonesheart.Icouldhearthehumannoisewesattheremaking.Noneofusmoving,notevenwhentheroomwentdark.